dear baby brothers,
dear baby brothers,
it's your lil sis here. we never got to meet, kinda makes me sad to think...that something so close to me existed and never got much of a chance.
i wish you were here.
i thought of visiting your grave recently, near the wintergreen gorge. i remember being there once but not very often... see i don't think mom or dad like to talk about you much, it's a hard memory to bare. you were here for such a short time and then gone. plucked from the earth like an early spring blossom, i hate that god choose you. i feel guilty sometimes because i'm here instead. like what did i do to deserve a life and not you? i'm quite certain if you had survived i would have never been conceived. i don't feel lucky though, it just kinda hurts to know that.
i just wish you were here.
see, life is pretty okay for the most part...and mom and dad are great parents. do you know that? do you remember them? i wonder where you are... i wonder about a lot of things, having a head constantly in the clouds. i'm a dreamer but a realist, an open minder never knowing quite what to believe. i feel like we're all just here for this short while ya know? in your case a horribly short while, nothing seems "fair". i don't understand why these things happen. i don't pretend to know, but a lot of people do.
anyways.. i miss you. i bet you would've been awesome brothers. i'm sorry things worked out the way they did. i wish this would somehow really get to you...
i wish you were here.
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