night ramblings

i read recently about how a person can totally change their minds about something, or be convinced of something totally contradictory to their previous belief, in the mere span of 4 minutes. FOUR MINUTES! isn't that kinda crazy? yeah. we're brain washed easy people, it's science so don't take offense. there are definite ways of being that we are solid on and hold sacred & all, it's just sometimes we can be a bit wishy washy. we contradict ourselves cause it's actually pretty normal to do.

sometimes i wear my heart on my sleeve, i see others wearing "things" on their sleeves, too. it's kinda interesting and annoying depending on the person. particularly ego-centric or macho sleeves, those are the annoying ones. so, i think i'm like a mixture of different sleeves, like my heart and then my anxiety and then my ego, too. does anybody even know what the hell i'm talking about?

anyways, i just thought of something. sometimes i'll be secretly mad at someone. then i see they "liked" something on my FB page & i'll be like, "okay, i'm not mad at them anymore".

((wishy washy human brain at it's finest)) :D

so yeah, i'm eating a couple Swedish fish right now, these things are really good. i haven't had one in years.

so lately i've been thinking about perceptions and how different all of ours are. like for one, why do many rate how "good" someone is doing depending on the weight of their pocket book? why do we pretend like we know what's best for everybody else? cause what's good for me might not be what's good for you, right? or vise-versa for that matter. of course, there are exceptions. if someone is a bad drug addict, most likely they are in self destruct mood and need help. and even then, it's sometimes impossible to truly help a drug addict, because they need to want to help themselves. we can feel empathy for someone and i guess that's the best emotional reaction to have. instead of getting angry, cause anger rarely causes much good, nor judgment.

oh, i recently watched a doc on netflix "the barkley marathons". it really inspired me. very interesting but i won't really get into it on here. basically what it taught me is "HOLY SHIT, if you want something bad enough, grow a set of balls and go DO IT". some of the most talented people in the world you will never know about, because they don't have the drive to do anything about it...in the grand scheme of things anyways. well, that goes back into my thoughts on what defines a person's worth. is it really money or fame? i don't believe so. but sometimes i don't think others realize how good they could have it if just for an once more ambition, a more comfortable life if anything.

i wonder if i contradicted myself at all within this blog entry? maybe so & if so, refer to the first paragraph.

good day sirs ;-)